somietimes i wish...

I wish to be a total stranger to whom i've ever known. I wanna walk to my future leaving all my past behind...commencing a new life and becoming a new person. But gradually, I think I'm still a failure. :)
I can never win over myself. That sounds pessimistic but unexpectedly, I'm one of those pessimistic girl and to those who know me well enough, they can understand why.
and recently i found myself weaker and weaker everyday :). Just a very small thing happen, i found myself sobbing already. I started being cynical again. Oh my god i always try to get rid of that word after "flowe for Algernon". unfortunately, I failed. haha.
SOMETIME I WISH TO BE A PUPPET SO I WILL NOT HAVE A BRAIN AND I'LL ONLY BECOME THOSE PEOPLE WANT ME TO BE. NO ROOM TO THINK. ALBEIT THE FACT THAT I WILL NEVER HAVE TO THINK AND GET MYSELF A HEADACHE, I'LL FOREVER BE A PUPPET. MEBE FATE WILL ARRANGE ME TO BECOME AN UGLY ONE THEN OMG MY LIFE IS TOTALLY A DOT. SO I DONT WANNA BE A PUPPET ANYMORE.
I'm really sad now. the atmosphere around me is solemn and I think the song "groomy sunday" can fit perfectly the theme song of this very moment. today is another day. tmrw is another day. i still have a long long way to move on... No, i won't give up and won't break down :) I'll keep moving on :) yay because I'm me :) haha damn funny. I'm so violate.
I'm feeling not so bad now. random. let's throw the word sad out of my head for a while. let's feel peace and happiness for a while. Let's go far away from reality for a while
:)

ha` no^.i tha^n ie^u :) episode 1 cam? ti`nh HANOI

Da~ hai tua^`n ke^? tu+` khi no' quay tro+? la.i HA NOI tha^n ie^u. Va^.y ma` kho^g hie^?u sao lo`ng no' va^~n nao nao. Ha` No.i cu?a no' thay do^?i nhanh qua' nhu+ng nhu+~ng ca'i gi` no' ye^u thick va^~n co`n nguye^n. no' vui la('m. Nhu+ng da^u do' trong ti't sa^u tha(?m ca'i ta^m ho^`n mo+'i lo+'n kia la` ca? mo^.t no^~i nie^~m, no' va^~n vu+o+ng va^'n nhu+~ng ky? nie^m tho+`i ho.c tro` cap sa'ch to+'i truo`ng cu`ng lu~ ba.n no' ma` gio` da^y thi` co`n da^u. No' cha? pha?i la` mo^.t con ngu+o+`i co^? hu?, ma(t kha'c no' la.i ra^'t hie^.n da.i va` luo^n thik nhu+~ng thu+' mo+'i, nhu+ng no cha? bao gio+` chi.u lo+'n. No' chi? muo^'n so^'ng ma~i vo+'i ca'i ky u+'c ma` no' cho la` de.p va` kho' que^n, no' muo^'n so^'ng ma~i vo+'i ca? ca'i qua' khu+' ma` da~ tro^i qua tu+` la^u, NO' LA` MO^.T CON TRE? CON VA` VA^~N CO`N DO+? HO+I LA(M.

Ti`nh ie^u no' da`nh cho HA` NO^.I ma~nh lie^.t la('m. No' chi? nha^.n ra die^`u do' ca'ch da^y du'ng hai na(m khi no', mo^.t con be' 15 tuo^?i quy'et di.nh da.t ra cho mi`nh mo^.t con du+o+`ng di moi': DU HOC. 15 tuo^?i cha^n u+o+'t cha^n ra'o kha(n go'i sang xu+' ngu+o+`i. Mo^.t mi`nh. De^'n lu'c da'y no' mo+'i bie^'t ca'i ti`nh ie^u HA` NO^.I trong lo`ng no' kho^ng bie^'t na?y ma^`m tu+` khi na`o.

No' nho+' da die^'t ta't ca? nhu+~ng gi` cu?a cuo^'i thu, cho'm do^ng vi` hom no' ra i thi` du'ng la` te^'t trung thu :). Nhu+~ng nga`y tha'ng o+? be^n xu' nguo`i da~ giu'p cho no', tu` mo^.t con be' luc na`o cu~ng huo'ng ngoa.i va` muo^'n ro`i xa ca'i cho'n a^'y ca`ng nhanh ca`ng to^'t tro+? tha`nh mo^.t nguo`i co' the^? ngo`i ha`ng tie^'ng lie^`n thuye^n huye^n ve` ve? de.p cu?a Ha Noi cho ba.n be` nuo'c ngoa`i nghe.

NO' tu. ha`o la'm ve` ca'i ma?nh dat cha^.t cho^.i a^'y cu?a no'. No' tu+ ha`o ve^` ca'i ma?nh da't ga^`n nghin` na(m tuo?i a'y lam. Thi thoa?ng, chi? cho+.t ngu+?i tha'y hay tro^ng tha'y mo^.t ca^y hoa su+~a tho^i ma` no' vui la('m, ke? ca? khi no' co' mo^.t chuy.en j do' tha^.t buo^`n ma` nhi`n tha^'y hoa su+a tho^i la no' que^n he^'t. No' que^n he^'t ta't ca? de? quy.en mi`nh va`o ca'i hu+o+ng vi. no^`ng na`n a^'y...Va` no' nghi~ ra('ng chi'nh ca'i huong tho+m nga`o nga.t a'y da~ thu'c giu.c tho`i gian tro^i qua tha.t nhanh cho'ng de? cho ngay` no' duo.c tro ve` de^'n so'm ho+n. Hoa sua~: Ta ca'm o+n mi nhie^`u la('m

Ha` No^.i ko pha?i chi? de.p trong long mo~i mi`nh no'. la` mo^.t con be' so`ng tinhd ca?m no' thuo`ng hay ta^m su+. vo+'i ba.n no' va` no' bie^t duo.c ra`ng, chi? nhi`n ngoai` the^' tho^i chu+' trong lo`ng ai cu~ng nuo^i na^'ng mo^.t ti`nh ie^u da die^'t da`nh cho ha` no.i :)

No' thik nha^'t la` nhu+ng ho^m na`o thu'c khuya va` cu`ng nhau ke^? chuye^.n ve` HA` NO^.I :) Nhu+ng nhu~ng lu'c nhu+ va^.y, nho+' nha` nhie^`u la'm :)

Nhu+ng du` sao di chang nu~a thi` ba^y gio+` no' cu~ng dang o? Ha` No^.i va` dang ta^.n hu+o+?ng ca'i lanh se se va` ca'i huong vi hoa su~a ma` no' ie^u quy'.

Va` 1 episode k the^? mie^u ta? he^'t tinh ca?m cu?a no' da`nh cho Ha` No^.i. va` no' cu~ng chua bie^'t la` no' se da`nh bao nhie^u epi'ode de? vie't len ca'i ti`nh ieu ma~nh lie^.t de.p de~ a'y nu+~a. No' chi? bie't day la` ca'i ke't thu'c cho epi 1 :)

no u ><

i dont know why im getting a lil bit upset... i called...no u...called again..NO U...sms NO REPLY... :) i dont know mebe its the same feeling every holiday, maybe i just think too much...maybe u just too busy with your life...i have been waiting all day long for ur sms but i just never received any sms from u first... u said mcq had no importance...ya thats maybe not true and you are so called studying.... :)
i dont wanna argue... but i also dont wanna talk... i dont wanna get myself into any trouble again :) mebe just don't talk.this would be fine for me :) dont worry i wont scold u and nothing will happen.
I'M TOTALLY FINE

:)

so just like the rainbow and the promise :) i promise myself tat must write on my blog more often but actually i seldom go visit MY OWN blog >< myself ="))">< gays... and he seems having a lot of fun. later die with me...leaving me here speechless ...wat a mean guy !!
im talking to sm1 called himself tomaktoes >< haha and thats noone else but pravin son of smt tat i cant rmb :) so damn funny...i dont know wat am i talking wit him...some random thing :) but really damn funny
oh mentioning about yesterday :) me n the double NTT stayed up late to talk about JOCKEY size L. haha...we argued in a very funny way through stt :) yay....later is another battle of ours :) again and again. we only keep talking about those sick stuff which keeps bringing so much fun.... :) yay that's all for now
P.s my toilet bowl is stuck...my grandmom spent 2 days... trying to repair and finally she has got a reward for her courage and determination ( courage for using her own hands fixing it ewwwwwwww) =))

hello vietnam and goodbye singapore...goodbye mr loo and all the others, but welcome back my memories :)

and my "gross" classmate" too

thats us malay dancers :) yay. even though training is tiring everytime but i really enjoy myself...bye bye malay dance...ill be back soon (: muak lots of love

thats him and me :) haha....i know i look kinda gross but never mind :) anyway still US

bye to everything that related to me in sg...no more hugs from you :( thats sad. no more date no more bully :( no more sweetness and tenderness from your love...cannnot feel that you are by my side. cannnot feel U anymore...can not camwhore:( :(( mentioning all these makes me feel like crying already.

and my malay dance...no more training to help me lose weight...no more gossips...no more everything that can make me smile :)

and my classmates...IP has already gone and class party was really amazingly fun :) i love all those moments that i can share with you guys :) i love it when we joked together in class :) everything is just so amazing :) hopefully, things will be the way it used to be for the next two years.