:))

it is just getting hotter and hotter...the weather is killing me and since my mother said my house was so cool as if it had been placed up the mountain she decided not to use aircon...actually my house has no aircon...but since me and my brother and my parents themselves cant stand it anymore...my mother decided to go and buy one ...but tmrw T.T so well, i can actually enjoy the aircon for 11 days...woohoo...and oh my god...exams are coming but i have no idea whats going on with my notes...they are covered with dust...i have left them aside for quite a while...recently. i used to think too much but i guess it is not good at all...not good for health...he always want me to be healthy i know it...healthy forever...the monkey, amanda, thu, hieu and all my friends dont want me to keep thinking abt him and living with the past, but well... he has been my past, my present and my future and i guess i cant forget him:) but js let him be there...in my heart ok? and i dont care whether i can be in his heart or not:) haha...
and well, in order not to think too much i hv been occupied myself...UOB painting...i have not started :(...but ill start soon...
And i am not used to the fact that my grandfather no longer stays with us and he had joined our ancestors merely one week ago. I still hv the feeling that he is still there on his bed, every night still open the frigde by his very own way...the noise of his slippers still lingers...and i always talk to him...actually talk to his picture. every time before meals, me n my grandma and my family still talk to him as if he were still alive...it is so strange...and so fast...sometimes i just stand in front of the mirror and found tear rolling down my cheeks....it is way too fast...no but soon i will have a chance to really let him go, let YONG KHANG go...YONG KHANG is happy with his new life and he doesnt have to care for me anymore...so i think life is easier for him...great then...mebe im sad...but watching him happy with his new life...well at first i could not take it at all but now...people i am actually happy for him...and happy for me too...because i have others to rely on...sometimes i am confused with my own feelings...about monkey about saiful about plenty of stuffs on earth but well...singlehood...im living with it to the max...and i am gonna make it to ITALY...i am not giving up my dream...but i am living for it...ill prove that i am actually somebody...SOMEBODY haha....wow...its actually LYNNA CAO...yes thats true....
I am not yet 18...so all the relationships things, i guess i will js treat them as breezes of my age...but breeze is not like air...breeze comes and gone...fast enough to make people surprised...fast enough to make people sad because they have missed so much chance to appreciate those breezes...i am one of those...but i am glad...he loved me the most...and i am glad...he was my superman....
YONG KHANG a...i still love u alot alot. u are still the best in my heart :) and if we are destined to be tgth, we will be together one day and if we are not then too bad...
and i am so despo to take out my freaking braces...
lol
and its so hot...im gonna go eat ice cream now...BbBb

inspiration from dong gu

i talked to the moneky today and he showed me his blog so i decided to update my blog. and i think i shud clear up all memories abt him alrd...my granddad js passed away...people js keep leaving me? i lost 2 best guys in my life in not more than 3 months...but time to grow old :) time to learn time to ponder new thoughts...damn it my father is yawning like there is no tomorrow distracting la u father :( so i decided i shud stop writing here :) and LUM U are a big big big monkey :)) haha random
having a surgery tmrw...im scared...they took my blood today...and i cried...i am really scared of blood....i thot of him for a while and i rmb how whiny and cute i was when i was with him...but yah...dont think abt it....dont care....think abt the chicken rice stupid monkey and AMANDA must buy me :)