Dear Lynna,
You have been abandoning your blog for quite a while. Let me make it clear. Your blog is really very helpful. It helps you express your own feeling and you can either choose to let other know or not. Sometimes, your blog is also a diary, where you can share all your innermost secrets. frankly, your blog is a friend that always listen to everything you wanna say without judging you, without making you feel bad, but giving you the feeling that no other friends can do.
You are moving on at a great speed. I am glad to know that. You are beginning your new journey, leaving behind you what unnecessary. YOU ARE BEGINNING TO ADAPT TO EIGHTEEN. Your birthday is coming in 2 weeks time. So soon that the LYNNA CAO i have known will become 18. You have been fooling with yourself for quite a while. in the pst 18 years, you have made lots of memories and you have done a good job colouring your own life. There, in your life I can see dark colours, representing those low feeling and depressing moments you have gone through over the past 18 years, but I can also see the bright colours of your life, your dreams, your memories with those loved one and friends, your hope, your fantasy. You are just an ordinary girl who believes in miracle and fantasy, who loves to watch Korean drama until the next morning and just go to school like that.
You loves to eat junk food
You are indeed a gossip queen
You know you are bitchy, But your friends know what kind of BITCH you are and they don't hate you
You love jazz
You are absolutely engaged to CHANEL and MIU MIU stuff, everything about CHANEL can turn you on and make you get high for few days consecutively
You are small size but your heart, your soul, your spirit are not small at all
You are trying your best to make your dreams come true
You are obssessed with KERASTASE hair products and You love your hair alot, treat it as if it were your husband
You do not want to be involved in any BGR, simply because you have had enough of those and you are still hurt.
You love clothes, especially in grey colour
You love Boyfriend shirt and dresses
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there are way so many things about you that I cannot say...
Dear Lynna,
Are you growing up
I think you are trying and you have done a good job so far. You don't break down that easily anymore. You become so tough that sometimes you cannot see that it is you who make those decisions. You are trying to stand on your own. You are trying to prove that despite you tiny size, you are actually a little something that make people remember you for, and make those who have conflicts with you scared. You are picking up pieces to create a whole new you, yet, your characters can never change, because you are wild, you are naturally born2becrazy.
Albeit all rapid changes you are progressing, you are still a little girl to me. You still likes a guy so much that makes you write him letters and read it to yourself
That makes you create a one man show, acting as both him and you... fantasizing your little pink world
You still have those moments where something pop up into your brain that reminds you of THAT CERTAIN SOMEONE, you will burst into tears, like a baby.
You are still running away from THAT CERTAIN SOMEONE. You are trying your best not to see him to encounter him or to have anything related to him
You like 2 guys...at the same time...but you are happy because you are not together with any of them...
You never hide true feelings from those good friends of yours. But adult dont do that. You are actually hiding quite alot....
You sometimes lies to catch people attention and you feel nice when people worry for you, as you know that they love you so much and care for you so much
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LYNNA
I believe that I AM ACTUALLY SOMETHING
this was written by LYNNA CAO, myself....this is a letter sending to myself....a self reflection indeed :)
loveya sweethearts
goodnight
